DAY 5, 5 pictures 5 stories


Hello Civilian,

Haaaa Day 5, I know it’s way way waaayyyy past due to continue with the 5 pictures 5 stories thing but I said I would do it and I insist on following through. First I guess you are wondering why I went MIA for so long. I wish I had a good excuse, something like; I had chronic writers block, worked the grave yard shift for two months, and finally the internet went down…so I called the cops. They haven’t been returning my calls since then, I guess they are really busy with the case. Tsyeaaa No, that’s not what happened.

I don’t work graveyard shifts, I didn’t have writers block, quite the contrary I have a backlog of things I have learnt over the past few months I wanted to share. So what was the reason then? what was so compelling that I didn’t post for so long? drum rolls please…. Duh da duh da duh… I am lazy…badum Tsss! read that line again, Yes I said it, I am lazy. It’s not something I’m particularly proud of, but something I know we all share, don’t we? with the exception of workaholics…I think.

More like the two firemen putting out the fire while simultaneously enjoying the warm heat in the comfort of those lawn chairs. It’s almost like a metaphor for most of our lives.

Let’s take a step back for a minute and look at this exciting human condition from what I would assume a “cause and effect” angle. Why are we lazy? It’s a pretty curious case right? when you know what to do, how to do it and why to do it  and yet not do it.

We do this all the time, not only in terms of work, but in the broader sense of the meaning of being lazy which now I would like to switch to “sloth”  known as one of the seven deadly sins. It’s interesting to me because sloth isn’t just about physical laziness but also emotional and spiritual laziness. I.e not doing things we know are religiously the right things to do, such as learn the Quran, or even just do something good for someone.

My theory is that laziness happens when we aren’t internally sufficiently motivated, which could be caused by a number of reasons, either we don’t understand our situation well enough to prioritize specific actions, or…ummm yea, that’s all I got.

Remedy? I am not entirely sure if there is a perfect one but I  know what works for me and I hope it works the same for most of us. My remedy is to remind myself that I am the only one accountable for my actions, my decisions and where I am now. I’m in charge and hence I am responsible. This tends to shift my perspective of things, so that I don’t and can’t blame any person, thing or situation, for whatever I am going through. Everything is on me.

I think it is empowering in a way, but mostly it is a reality check. I remind myself that judgement day is going to be a lonely day.

Quran 74:38 ” Every soul will be (held) in pledge (accountable) for its deeds”

There are a bunch of other verses that drive this point home even more, such as no one will bear another’s burden (sins) Quran 35:18, but I would like to keep this post short, kinda.

I apologize for taking such a long time off posting, I am still going to keep writing as much as I can inshaAllah. The good news is  I usually respond to comments even when I’m off, so that’s one way to get to me. 🙂

Yes, I should stop writing now, (I mean for this post, don’t feel too sad)

I love you all for the sake of Allah

– Abd




Asalam Aleykum Fellow homosapiens,

     Just recently, in the last days of Ramadan I was at the mosque for prayer and for some reason I decided to just sit and start looking at people. Honing my observation skills, people walking, talking, praying, reading and yeaa that’s about it.   Suddenly something hit me, not something physical (don’t jump to conclusions), I mean a thought got into my mind. Which was “ heyyy look at the variety of Muslims around” , okkk wait, first don’t judge me, I am not as slow as that thought sounds.

     It’s just that I had never really thought about how many different types of Muslims there are, I’m not talking about differences in Madhab, I’m talking in terms of race, color, culture, thoughts, backgrounds, (Ok, I might be slow)  but not as a source of discrimination but as a source of beauty.

  The issue is that I had somehow taken for granted this diversity; it was just Muslims are Muslims; we are all one Ummah done deal. Signed, sealed, delivered. I never quite thought about the fact that, so many people from so many different walks of life are Muslims, to the extent that the only thing common in their lives is only Islam. Everything else is almost completely different.

It was so nice seeing so many different types of people all come together to worship Allah. Which reminded me of this Ayah;

Surah Nasr 110

When the victory of Allah has come and the conquest, And you see the people entering into the religion of Allah in multitudes, Then exalt [Him] with praise of your Lord and ask forgiveness of Him. Indeed, He is ever Accepting of repentance.”

    So I left thinking about it, I told my friend about it, he must have thought I am high off Taraweeh prayers, and wobbly legs is causing simple thoughts to seem profound (I don’t usually sound coherent when these types of thoughts first get into my system). But I still like the thought of the differences and the variety it’s just amazing to me. Life would be very very boring if we were all the same, I mean borderline suicidal type of boring. What next? guess it’s the next life then, good bye monotonous world.

Surat Al-Ĥujurāt 49:13 

O mankind, indeed We have created you from male and female and made you peoples and tribes that you may know one another. Indeed, the most noble of you in the sight of Allah is the most righteous of you. Indeed, Allah is Knowing and Acquainted.”

 I believe we should learn to embrace our differences and to bond in our similarities. Feel free to Quote me. Hold on, my head is tipping over to the left from ego inflation. The next verse should set it right.

 Surat Al Maidah 5:48

“And We have revealed to you, [O Muhammad], the Book in truth, confirming that which preceded it of the Scripture and as a criterion over it. So judge between them by what Allah has revealed and do not follow their inclinations away from what has come to you of the truth. To each of you We prescribed a law and a method. Had Allah willed, He would have made you one nation [united in religion], but [He intended] to test you in what He has given you; so race to [all that is] good. To Allah is your return all together, and He will [then] inform you concerning that over which you used to differ.”

I added this so as to remind us to never ever judge anyone who isn’t Muslim or Muslim yet, since it’s clear here that Allah chose to make it so to test us in what HE has given us. I would like to think that part of that test is our tolerance towards people different from ourselves, (by ourselves I mean individually, not as an Ummah) which would be everyone.

Basically, embrace the differences within the Ummah and tolerate the differences outside the Ummah, of course the good ones in both cases. I am not advocating taking up drinking because you are “embracing the differences”… That difference is best left a difference.

Love you all for the sake of Allah

  • ABD



    First off, I hope everyone had a blessed Ramadan, and I would like to apologize once again for the silence. It had a lot to do with Fasting, Finals, Work and a Thesis, it was fun…the only thing that could top that kind of fun is to go bungee jumping with NO STRINGS ATTACHED, then do two back flips, three rolls and finish off with a HEAD STAND! …did I mention NO STRINGS ATTACHED?  Because  it would SUCK if we left that part out. So without further ado, I bring to you;

    Challenges; We all have challenges in our lives, call them problems, call them tests, I prefer challenges. Because they are things that once you overcome them, you come out stronger and better and ready to face new and harder challenges. It shows progress. Problems on the other hand have a connotation with things that are usually random and overcoming them doesn’t really mean it leads to progress, rather it’s just something in our way best left avoided.

      So these challenges slash tests that we all have and all struggle with, facing them challenges makes us stronger and better people. Keyword “Facing”, because as we all know, not everytime or everyone faces their challenges. Sometimes we push them to the side and hope they will go away by distracting ourselves, but that’s a proven hands down failure tactic, no two ways about it. However getting the courage to get up (not literally) and face them doesnt come easy either, but eyy we gotta suck it up and get it over with if we want to live better lives and become better people. Because honestly that’s the point of challenges, to make us better. Once you overcome a challenge when you look back at it, most times it doesn’t seem like a challenge anymore. Its purpose has passed. So I would suggest that, that’s how we should look at the various challenges in our lives that they are kept there so that we may become better people.

    We want to be better at school, we want to be better at home, a better son, a better daughter, a better father, or mother, a better friend, a better worker or entrepreneur. Humans are created seeking more, wanting more and moving forward, it is never ending. Challenges can also be things like avoiding the influence of bad friends, smoking, drinking, or quiting these things.

Remember Allah would not test a servant with more than what the servant can bear

Surat al-Muminun 23:62

And We charge no soul except [with that within] its capacity, and with Us is a record which speaks with truth; and they will not be wronged.”

I’ll be honest I have had challenges mop the floor with me and the challenges that I overcame I had to bend over backwards so far that I nearly looked upright again. Yes we have all seen the dark side of our challenges, but what this Verse means is we all have it in us to overcome our challenges, we are stronger than our challenges. Whether we see it now or not, but simply being stronger doesn’t mean we don’t need to struggle for it, it just means if we do struggle we will succeed. So Keep up the Hustle. And remember

Surat al-A’raf 7:42

But those who believed and did righteous deeds – We charge no soul except [within] its capacity. Those are the companions of Paradise; they will abide therein eternally.”


Surat al-Kahf 18:88

But as for one who believes and does righteousness, he will have a reward of Paradise, and we will speak to him from our command with ease.”


Surat az-Zumar, 52-54

“Do they not know that Allah expands and restricts the provision of anyone He wills? There are certainly Signs in that for people who believe. Say [from Me]: “My servants, you who have transgressed against yourselves, do not despair of His mercy. Truly, Allah forgives all wrong actions. He is the Ever-Forgiving, the Most Merciful.” Turn to your Lord and submit to Him before punishment comes upon you, for then you cannot be helped.

Love you all for the sake of Allah

  • ABD



        Everything good and sustainable starts with the Fear of Allah. Keywords in this statement are “Good and Sustainable”. Well, I think I will start with the genesis of this idea or thought; I am usually worried (as I believe most people are) about sustaining the good things I do. I mean, as humans we forget, we forget to be kind to others sometimes, we say things we might not mean at times, our faith isn’t constantly rising, it even sinks sometimes.

       So I think it’s a justified to be worried about it. We don’t know the future, we don’t know what will happen, what type of situations we will be in and what type of options we will have. So how do we get prepared for that? So that we don’t end up making decisions that we will regret later on?

Of course you read the title so you know where I am going with this, and yeah its actually that obvious. The only way to be certain that you will not make decisions now or in the future that you might regret is by Fearing Allah.

Fearing Allah might sound abstract sometimes, I mean we would assume every Muslim Fears Allah, and intellectually that would be true, by just thinking about it, Allah’s Greatness and Might, its logical to Fear Allah, but its usually not in our Hearts.

And I don’t think it ever starts there, I think that’s the challenge, to work to get the Fear of Allah from our Minds to our Hearts, because its usually only when our Hearts truly want something or feel something that we act according to it.

Which leads to another question, how do we put the Fear of Allah in our hearts?

 Mmmhhhh….tough one

Me: we could…

Myself: no

Me: or…

Myself: that would never work

Me: then…

Myself: I’m not really sure if that’s legal

Me: A HA! It’s the Quran

Myself: it’s the Quran.

Allah (SWT) says in the Quran:

Surat Yūnus 10:57

O mankind! There has come to you a good advice from your Lord (i.e. the Quran, ordering all that is good and forbidding all that is evil), and a healing for that (disease of ignorance, doubt, hypocrisy and differences, etc.) in your breasts, – a guidance and a mercy (explaining lawful and unlawful things, etc.) for the believers.”

  For those who don’t know, “in your breasts” = your heart. 🙂

    I believe that one of the diseases in the heart, probably the worst one, the most potent, which can lead to hypocrisy is the fear of anything else other than Allah.

Be it fear of the future, the past, society expectations, parents, a person, “evil”, magic, la la la, yadi yadi yada…the list goes on. If we don’t fear Allah, we will end up fearing almost everything else, but when we Fear Allah, we realize there is nothing left to Fear.

And a verse that I love in the Quran, which was the reason I wrote this post. Huge wake up call and boost of faith for all those who want to be successful in life, whatever that maybe, is this

Surah Al- Ma’idah 5:100 

“Say, “Not equal are the evil and the good, although the abundance of evil might impress you.” So fear Allah , O you of understanding, that you may be successful.”

The Ayah really speaks for itself, there isn’t much to break down, evil and good aren’t equal, there is a lot of evil going on, don’t let that “impress you” or fool you, thinking its ok, or “normal”. Fear Allah, since you understand so that you may be successful.

Defining success, is something I will put up in one of the following posts, as well as prepping for the coming Ramadan!!!!!!…..Yaaaaayyyyy

     But the drift of all this, if you happen not to catch it, is that when we start practicing to  do things for the sake of Allah and out of Fear of Allah, we will do them with more consistency and more willingly, even if we slip and fall here and there we will never lose our way, and read any success story and tell me that’s not how it happened. No one gets it perfect, in one shot, or two, or three…or…yea but we fail forward and never lose hope in Allah’s Mercy that’s how to be successful.

     Homework: Try to help someone for the Sake of Allah, just regardless of what they might think or say, grateful for it or not, is irrelevant, because the only one who you want to impress with that deed is the only one who is really going to reward you with that deed.

That’s all for now

Love you all for the Sake of Allah




Asalaam Aleykum

  I know the topic sounds like it needs to be handled by a professional psychiatrist, but I’ll go at it any way (Let me know how I do in the comments)… SOooo yea sometimes we might reach points in our lives where we ask ourselves…who the hell am I??

Generally…and if you are smart…kidding… we all are (yea lets run with that)… then we might have separated the parts of us we are given(had no say in whatsoever) from the things we chose.

We didn’t choose our gender or the family we are born in, or the race, probably didn’t even choose our OWN NAMES!! (Shocker!…I know). But we can say we chose our religion, (if we did the research and decided to follow Islam), we might have chosen what we study, what we do… yeaa… but I learnt that, recognizing our major decisions still doesn’t tell us who we are, it tells us a part of it but that’s not enough.

What we are is a little bit more than just our major decisions in our life, its more about the little decisions we make on day to day, minute to minute basis. That’s us.

Though to be more accurate, it’s the things we do when no one is looking that define us. If we want to know who we are, we should just look at the things we do when we think no one is around to see us, or when we don’t care whether someone is there or not. The good the bad and the ugly. That’s the real us.

It’s us being sincere to ourselves, when we do things for us, that’s why I guess we are supposed to pray and ask Allah in secret and why doing things for others to see is not considered sincere

Allah says in the Quran

Surat Al-‘A`rāf  7:55 

“Invoke your Lord with humility and in secret. He likes not the aggressors.”

    We should be careful though that we don’t start doing things in secret so that we can seem righteous in our own eyes and assume everyone doing righteous deeds in front of people is doing something wrong, that would be a mistake and quite counterproductive.

So sit down (you are probably sitting) and find out who you are…

HINT: Well since you are reading this in secret…you are off to a good start…you are a good person, but ssssshhhhhh don’t tell anyone..

That’s all for now.

Love you all for the Sake of Allah.




NOTE: The picture above DOES NOT depict Satan, it depicts a JEDI.

Asalaam Aleykum Brothers and sisters

After years of research, observation and uncontrolled experiments I have finally managed to break this down to a science…(always wanted to say that). Back to the point, I have managed to identify three main weaknesses, in Satan’s schemes.

1)  Saying “A’udhu Billahi min ash shaytan-ir rajeem” (I seek refuge with Allah from Shaytan the accursed)

Surah Fussilat 41: 36

“And if there comes to you from Satan an evil suggestion, then seek refuge in Allah . Indeed, He is the Hearing, the Knowing.”


  According to the hadeeth the Prophet (salla ALLAH alayhi wa sallam) said: “The Shaytaan said to the Lord of Glory: ‘By Your Glory O Lord, I will keep trying to misguide Your slaves so long as their souls are in their bodies.’ The Lord said, ‘By My Glory and Majesty, I will continue to forgive them so long as they ask My forgiveness.’”
Narrated by Ahmad in al-Musnad and classed as saheeh by al-Albaani in Saheeh al-Jaami’, 2/32

3) Repetition.

Despite the high level of sophistication of his techniques, most of them are repetitive and common. And humans learn. So now I would like to share with you the ones I know, you can share yours on the comment section to raise awareness. This is part two of  more parts to follow Inshaa Allah.

1) Most subtle trick and most effective is to make us Ungrateful to Allah and then Ungrateful to others.

Quran Al-‘A`rāf 7: 16 -17

“[Satan] said, “Because You have put me in error, I will surely sit in wait for them on Your straight path.

Then I will come to them from before them and from behind them and on their right and on their left, and You will not find most of them grateful [to You].”

Abu Huraira reported: The Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “He has not thanked Allah who has not thanked people.”

2) To build arrogance and pride.

Satan’s own features that led him to destruction

3) Laziness

[O Allaah, I take refuge in You from anxiety and sorrow, weakness and laziness, miserliness and cowardice, the burden of debts and from being over powered by men]

[Sahih Al-Bukhari, 7/158]

I Call that the dua of a strong man.

4) Distractions, wasting time and forgetting Allah.

If Satan cannot trap someone into sinning, he keeps them busy with trivial acts which have no benefit. Instead of using our time wisely, fulfilling our priorities and reaching high goals, Satan occupies us with useless actions.

5) Make us think wrongly of Allah

Surah Luqmān31:33

“O mankind, fear your Lord and fear a Day when no father will avail his son, nor will a son avail his father at all. Indeed, the promise of Allah is truth, so let not the worldly life delude you and be not deceived about Allah by the Deceiver.”

6) Fear the future, and fear in general of anything other than Allah.

Surah al-Baqarah: 268

“Satan threatens you with poverty and orders you to immorality, while Allah promises you forgiveness from Him and bounty. And Allah is all-Encompassing and Knowing.”

Surah ‘Āli `Imrān 3: 175

“That is only Satan who frightens [you] of his supporters. So fear them not, but fear Me, if you are [indeed] believers.”

7) Regret the past

Rasul Allah (sal Allahu alaihi wa sallam) said: “Seek out that which benefits you, seek help only from Allah and never say you can’t do it. If any adversity comes to you do not say: ‘If I had only acted in such-and-such a way, it would have been such-and-such;’ but instead, say: ‘Allah has decreed (it) and what He willed, He has done,’ for verily, (the word) ‘if’ opens the way for the work of Satan.” [Sahih Muslim]

We all have things in our past we aren’t proud of, but living in the past won’t change them. Rather let’s realize we are here now because Allah wants us to be so let’s repent and move on to greater heights.

8) Glamorizing sin and evil deeds

Surah Al-‘An`ām 6: 43

“Then why, when Our punishment came to them, did they not humble themselves? But their hearts became hardened, and Satan made attractive to them that which they were doing.”

9) To bring doubt, literary just to play with your mind.

 Anas reported that when Allah’s Messenger (may peace be upon him) was in the company of one of his wives a person happened to pass by them. He called him and when he came, he said to him: 0 so and so, she was my such and such wife. Thereupon he said, Allah’s Messenger, if I were to doubt at all, I would have entertained no doubt about you at least. Thereupon Allah’s Messenger (may peace be upon him) said: Verily Satan circulates in the body like blood.  

10) Weakens one’s faith and Eeman in Al-Qadr (Allah’s Divine Will),

Gives you the illusion of coincidence and randomness, making you forget everything happens for a reason and everything is decreed.  Which consequently weakens your trust in Allah.

Surah Al-‘An`ām 6: 58 -59

“Say, “If I had that for which you are impatient, the matter would have been decided between me and you, but Allah is most knowing of the wrongdoers.”

And with Him are the keys of the unseen; none knows them except Him. And He knows what is on the land and in the sea. Not a leaf falls but that He knows it. And no grain is there within the darknesses of the earth and no moist or dry [thing] but that it is [written] in a clear record.”

And Last but not least, when the curtain falls and the show is over, then comes Satan’s Pièce de résistance”.

Surah Ibrahim 14:22

“And Satan will say when the matter has been concluded, “Indeed, Allah had promised you the promise of truth. And I promised you, but I betrayed you. But I had no authority over you except that I invited you, and you responded to me. So do not blame me; but blame yourselves. I cannot be called to your aid, nor can you be called to my aid. Indeed, I deny your association of me [with Allah ] before. Indeed, for the wrongdoers is a painful punishment.”


Yup that’s Satan for ya,

Love you All for the Sake of Allah


PS: BY NO means is this list exhaustive of satans tricks so if you know of any other tricks satan uses please share and if you have identified other weaknesses of his, the floor is yours… I would be happy to hear it.



Asalaam Aleykum Brothers and Sisters,

As part of my research seeking to know and understand my relationship with my CREATOR, and your CREATOR. I found this list and I liked it and I would like to share it with you.


1) Allah loves the good-doers (Qur’an sura 2, verse 195; 3:134 & 148; 5:13 & 93)

2) Allah loves those who repent (Q 2:222)

3) Allah loves those who cleanse themselves (Q 2:222; 9:108)

4) “Say, ‘If you love Allah, follow me; Allah will love you…’” (Q 3:31)

5) Allah loves the godfearing (Q 3:76)

6) Allah loves the patient (Q 3:146)

7) Allah loves those who put their trust [in him] (Q 3:159)

8) Allah loves the just (Q 5:42; 49:9; 60:8)

9) Allah loves the godfearing (Q 9:4 & 7)

10) Allah loves those who fight in his way (Q 61:4)


1) Allah does not love transgressors [Q 2:190, 5:87, 7:55]

2) Allah does not love corruption [Q 2:205]

3) Allah does not love the impious and guilty [Q 2:276]

4) Allah does not love the unbelievers [Q 3:32; 30:45]

5) Allah does not love evildoers [Q 3:57 &140; 42:40]

6) Allah does not love the proud and boastful [Q 4:36; 31:18; 57:23]

7) Allah does not love one who is treacherous and sinful [Q 4:107]

8) Allah does not love the utterance of harsh speech save by one who has been wronged [Q 4:148]

9) Allah does not love the corrupters [Q 5:64; 28:77]

10) Allah does not love the transgressors [Q 5:87]

11) Allah does not love the prodigals (wasteful) [Q 6:141; 7:31]

12) Allah does not love the proud [Q 16:23]

13) Allah does not love each guilty ingrate [Q 22:38]

14) Allah does not love the exultant [Q 28:76]

A’isha said that Rasulullah saw said: “The deeds most loved by Allah (are those) done regularly, even if they are small.” (Bukhari, Muslim)

 Love you all for the sake of Allah


Proof of God’s Existence


   First, I wasn’t born into a Muslim family ( but rather pretty strict Christians) and my country isn’t a Muslim majority country. This might seem like a disadvantage or not conducive but appearances can be deceiving. When you are on the outside, it forces you to think; you start searching for answers and you do everything to find the truth.

  Let’s start at the base. I wanted to prove to myself through and through that God exists, no two ways about it, no room for doubt. I went about this in many ways but the most direct one and simplest one I can think of is when I was thinking about origin and purpose.

   Everything in this world has an origin and purpose; nothing is from thin air and nothing is there for absolutely no reason (agreed?). Look around you, everything you have came from somewhere and someone made it. It is for a particular purpose and when it can no longer fulfill its purpose what happens?You trash it. Simple. Who keeps broken mugs no matter how beautiful they look? So that means the earth was made, you were made and you have a purpose.

 Therefore, Base one: Some “ONE” created earth. It didn’t just magically appear and we didn’t evolve from monkeys, otherwise WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED to the other monkeys?? They said “naa…you guys go ahead and evolve, give me a banana, I’m good.” Base two: Since everything originated from somewhere and someone made it, the next question was “Where did God come from?” So I was stuck for a bit. I know in the bible it is written that God is the beginning and the end and there was none before HIM and there will be none after, but I had already questioned the authenticity of the bible given the many versions and alterations done to it, so I needed something more solid.

    So, honestly, Islam kind of fell right into my lap and after reading the Holy Quran I realized this must be the words of God. It’s just that simple. No human being could ever write it or come up with it and in it God says He is the only Godand only He is God. “La ilaha Illallah”, and there is nothing before HIM. In many more verses proof of God’s existence is presented with simple and direct language that everyone can understand by their God-given reasoning. No need to be a scholar or a philosopher to understand it.

   Now as for the skeptics and critics who are still open minded, please don’t take my word for it. Go read the Quran yourself and think about it. If you just say no you wont read it, ok… but why? You don’t want to find out that it might be true? If you are so sure its false why not test it out for yourself to be 100% sure. Its easy now… download or find it online. Read from the first page, English translation, and keep reading. That’s all. Proof of the pudding is in the eating.

    I would like to say that this is the reason I converted, but its not. I believed in God’s existence since Christianity and I never doubted it; it’s just that I had decided not to take it for granted and really prove it to myself. But the reason I converted was because I met a Muslim brother who inspired me; he never tried to lecture me about Islam, even when I asked him questions about Islam, he would give me direct answers and references to the Quran or Sunnah. He wouldn’t use them as opportunities to convince me of anything. He was better than me at everything, football, basketball (not anymore), studies, talking to people, jokes, movies, cartoons… literally everything I thought I was good at. I converted to Islam because I believed the way he was guided by Islam is the best way a man should be guided in life. I wanted to be like him; so energetic, so composed, happy and self directed. It seemed nothing could faze him. So after a year and a half of being friends, I had realized I believed everything about Islam I had even fasted in Ramadan, I just hadn’t started praying. I went and told him I would like to convert and he said…no, not just yet. NO?? I know right, but believe it or not I was 14 then and he was 17. The issue here is if my parents found out, or if any of my friends found out, my life would be very difficult from there on and he would feel responsible for it and he wouldn’t be able to help. But after a long talk, we agreed no one is to know and I converted to Islam. You didn’t see anything (waving while disappearing into the background). Moral of the story: lead by example.

 Thank you for your Time.