Asalaam Aleykum Veterans,
Yes I am still around, I have had busy-ness and a little bit of lazy in mixed in my schedule lately, ok maybe a lot of lazy and a little bit of busy. Forgive me.
I have had something on my chest for a while, no not my t-shirts, it’s a bit heavier and on the internal side. That is, I am afraid I keep displeasing Allah and in a rare moment of vulnerability I am going to open up and say… I am scared shitless but then I keep displeasing Allah. Does it make me a hypocrite? Maybe/ probably, (personal opinion), does it mean I am doomed? No, (Again, personal opinion).
I think all Muslims struggle with this issue a sad fact we all deal with and that is; we have all done things that displease Allah A.K.A SINS and no matter how many times we sincerely repent we still continue to do sins. If we are still alive by next week we will do something to displease Allah.
It is frustrating… I know, despite trying so hard sometimes and still failing over and over again. Ok ok, enough with the depressing stuff, you know I must be telling you this stuff for a reason, so go on then spill the beans, what to do?
I actually have no idea… I was hoping you guys could let me know, seriously in the comment section. Let me know how you deal with it.
In the meantime I have a theory I am working on, (I know I said I had no idea just two lines ago, but this is just a theo.. let’s not get into the technicalities of what an idea is and what it’s not and…) Khemmm the theory is; Instead of focusing on when we displease Allah, we should focus on when we please Allah, focus on doing more good for the sake of Allah, being sincere and asking Allah to accept our good deeds and to guide us.
Did you know that good deeds erase bad deeds?
Whaaaaatttt??? Shut the front door!
“And establish prayer at the two ends of the day and at the approach of the night. Indeed, good deeds do away with misdeeds. That is a reminder for those who remember”
This is one of the best news in the Quran (personally speaking) well the Quran is about warnings and glad tidings and this is one awesome glad tiding for me. Mostly because when I think back to all the sins I have done and the realization that I will probably do more, I feel helpless and it can be depressing. So for a long time I kept asking myself what can I do about it, what do I really have control over? (I thought dying sooner would stop the accumulation of bad deeds to my scale, I thought it over and it was discussed but I was overruled). So I remembered this verse and Ta daaaa here we be. I say I remembered this verse because the first time I read it I thought hmmm that’s interesting to know, but it didn’t occur to me as a solution for this problem. Another reason why reading the Quran should be like a hobby, because trying to finish it once like a task is not doing justice to the Quran or ourselves.
And as for doing good deeds, even smiling at someone is a good deed and I hope this post might be one of them. May Allah accept our good deeds and erase all our bad deeds.
I think the three major takeaways here are:
- Don’t lose hope or kill yourself for your bad deeds, regret them yes, repent, yes. But don’t let them bring you down to the point of giving up.
- Do as many good deeds as possible with the intention of pleasing Allah and erasing your bad deeds, plus adding on good deeds to your scale
- This struggle between good and bad deeds is the whole purpose of life, it is the test.
You don’t believe me?? Ohh you don’t believe me… ok, ok.. here:
That’s all for now,
Love you all for the sake of Allah